25

Almost two weeks ago, I celebrated my 25th birthday. The day did not start out well at all. It was probably one of the worst mornings in a while. Cadence was still recovering from an ear infection and refused to take her medicine. Zeus also required medicine for his bacterial infection. Cadence had many meltdowns on the way to school. Once I got to school, it did get better. I got some nice gifts and birthday wishes. Cindy, at the Pregnancy Center got me The Hills season one on DVD, because we had talked about it previously and how I had missed alot of that season. Later that evening, we were supposed to meet my mom for dinner and on the way we had to stop at my in-laws house. There I walked into a surprise party that my mom, ben, and my mother in law had thrown for me! It was incredible! I have always wanted a surprise party and it was the perfect mix of my friends and family and generally people I love and that love me! I want to thank everyone who came to the party and those who could not come for keeping the secret and for helping me to have a great 25th birthday! It has been a hard year and I needed that fun night and being around people I love. Above is a picture of mom and I from the party.

The next night we continued the fun at Senor Tequila's with friends and margaritas. It was one of the funnest birthdays I have had.

Decisions

I really do hate making big decisions. I don't particularly like change and hate having to decide about changing things. I have been happy in some way with my job teaching preschool this year and un-happy in others. With Ben's support I had decided not to come back to the preschool and to focus my time and efforts on working at the Pregnancy Center and on (hopefully!) being pregnant. However, we had yet to figure out the monetary ramifications of that decision. Then today, I was offered a different teaching job within the preschool and alot of the things that I have been unhappy with, I would no longer have to deal with. They are even willing to change the job to 4 days a week, so that I could at least devote a full day (Mondays) to Pregnancy HopeLine. It would mean that Cadence could still go to Kirk of the Hills, I would still get the tuition break and make money! However, Ben is not sure he wants me there. One certain person has been the largest source of my stress, and they will still be there. However, I will not have to deal with them as much. I don't know what to do. I know we are not financially stable enough to pass up the job offer. I also would rather work this year while being pregnant, and be able to take time off after the baby is born, than be off and be forced back to work too soon due to financial issues. Being a grown up sucks! I really just want someone else to make up my mind for me.